rest, recharge, regenerate

Zzzz #2My brain and body took one look at February and shut down.

Or rather, they paddled diligently through the move (October/November), Christmas (December), editing Magnet (which came to a peak in January), various tasks involving the book (which seemed to slot in where the other things weren’t so huge – nice) and then – deep breath, pause…

…and clunk.

I’ve come to realise that this is not a bad thing. Assessing the situation, my subconscious seems to have thought — aha! now’s the time to go into ‘sleep mode’. The standby light is blinking, but we’re not showing any images at the moment.

That’s okay.

I don’t feel particularly spiritually attuned either, just a bit of static humming…but again, somehow I don’t feel that this is a bad thing. The only sense I get whenever I try to think on God-things or listen to God or seek God – is that it’s okay not to think at the moment. Just relax. Recharge. Rest is in order…just have a bit of downtime in between the everyday essentials. Stop worrying about feeling tired. Let it have its say for a while, and regenerate.

Can’t write much either. Have no urge, no inspiration. And that’s okay too. Everything’s on recharge. I need a moment of pause.

Call it holy hibernation. Or just a bit of downtime. ย I’m pottering around catching up on the things that got shunted to one side in the uber-busy patches. ย But if I need to stop and lie down, or I struggle to wake up in the mornings, that’s okay.

Because I’ve given myself permission, it feels a voluntary exercise rather than compulsory limitation.

Rest, little one. It’s okay.

When you need to, you’ll wake up.

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14 thoughts on “rest, recharge, regenerate

  1. I can remember when I was expecting Vanessa, I had a threatened miscarriage and ended up in hospital on complete bed rest. I couldn’t do anything, but one verse kept coming to me over and over again “Be still and know that I am God”. You may not feel very spiritual but God doesn’t ask us to do a lot of striving – just be still and I believe in that stillness He is there. Sometimes our bodies just say enough is enough – no more! But stillness is good.

  2. ‘Holy hibernation’ is a great phrase – your doing nothing has done something simply by giving us that.
    And the idea that there can be spiritual exhaustion as we ll as physical, mental and emotional exhaustion is certainly something to ponder on.

    Thank you.

  3. I think you’re very wise to be gentle with yourself and He won’t let you sleep through anything important. He’ll give you a nudge when it’s time to get going again. Sleep tight and recharge, Lucy.

  4. It sounds like you’ve given in graciously, Lucy. I’m more of the ‘kicking n’ screaming just-let-me-finish-this-first’ sort who crashes and burns. Love the idea of a ‘Holy hibernation’. It’s tempting to be sure! Enjoy the R&R and come back renewed, restored and refreshed. We’ll still be here. xx

      1. Please let me know how it goes! I really should be following your example. Yet every time I decide to draw back and take life a little easier, stuff happens and I’m back where I was before. Hope to get a break soon when family are here for Half Term. Though it will mainly be a different kind of busyness happening. Praying for you, my friend. Blessings and love xx

        1. Hmm yes I know that scenario. Sometimes I have to rest from one kind of busyness at a time…be it mental, social or physical. Life rarely gives us a break from all of them…but perhaps we need to relish the respite in individual areas…

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