It’s always a journey.
Life, that is. And not just life in the whole-kit-and-caboodle existence thing, but different parts of life.
Take writing, for example. A few years ago signing a publishing contract seemed the end of an impossible journey. Now that I’ve done it, I’ve discovered that it isn’t. In fact, now I’ve signed a contract I’m suddenly worrying about the book – something I thought wouldn’t be an issue. The journey goes on. I find myself in a crisis of confidence. Is this really good enough? Or will people look at it, shrug their shoulders and think ‘whatever’? I always wanted to do the best I could with it. Now I’m even more anxious that I do.
I need to give myself a talking to, no doubt.
It’s not about other people’s approval.
But I want to make a difference! I want it to mean something – all this work, all this hoping, all this trying to follow God’s calling.
Not the same thing. Plus, the last bit – the God-calling bit – that’s the thing to cling to. Why should that change now, now that it’s official? Didn’t you let go of all that ‘seeking others’ approval’ thing a few years back/last September/a week ago (delete as appropriate)?
Shuffle, shuffle (that’s my feet). Well, ye-esss.
Then what’s the problem?
Just a little scared.
Fair enough. But the journey goes on, right? You’ve just turned a corner and it’s all new and different.
Very different. We’re moving house/area/church too, you know.
Yes, I do know. I’m you, remember?
Oh. Right. Of course.
So it’s scary and you’re more tired than you’d like to be, and you feel guilty about feeling like that, because so many people want to get to the place you just reached. But…
But it’s a journey. You can’t analyse every footstep. You’ve just got to put one foot forward…yes, just like that.
One foot forward. Right. Okay. My next task in life is actually…cleaning the bathroom.
Go clean the bathroom.
Um. All right. Come on, feet.
PS You know you’ve got company, right? There’s someone who sticks with you with every step – big or small. In every place you’ve been and ever will be…