creating space

One thing I’ve been trying to tackle these past few days of advent is the general messiness of me.  I mean this on so many levels.  Most of the time it’s highly unintentional and undesired, and although I will readily admit to my own clutteredness, it’s not something I appreciate others pointing out!

Why?  Because I’m not proud of it. Before you leap in to reassure me, I have to tell you that it is not really to do with what other people think.  It is how it makes me feel.  When my space is cluttered, I feel cluttered. I don’t actually like it.  It disappoints me, frustrates me. There are those who are untidy and perfectly happy to be so – but in order to be creative, I need space.  And that means being creative on a whole new level.

There are always so many things that do not have a ready ‘home’.  They are impossible to categorise.  My other problem – and it’s a big one – is that if I don’t see something, I frequently forget I have it.  So I try and keep it visible and accessible.  And still tidy.  When I’m tired, this feels impossible.

This is not just simply objects, but scraps of paper, written ideas.  If I scurry them neatly away, I forget about them entirely.  And my world does not have enough shelves and walls for all my thoughts, plans and ideas.  Drawers need re-organising in order to put things in them, everything has its own domino effect.

I have a messy mind.  It turns over and over, the thoughts tumbling through at breakneck speed.  If I don’t bottle them and store them, they are easily lost.  For a writer, this is frustrating.

So, I am trying to create space.  One room at a time.  Trying to declutter, to make things bright and new.  Even with my blog – wanting something cleaner, fresher, less busy in style (hope you like it, by the way!)

Part of this is necessarily to do with prioritising – what is really important?  What do I really need to see every day?  What things, if I forget, really don’t matter that much?

In this advent season, when so many of us are consumed by busyness, perhaps it is healthy to have a soul clearout.  Let’s not wait till spring.  Let’s do it now, preparing our hearts and minds for the coming of our Saviour,  in remembering the past – the incarnation, in living in the present – the Holy Spirit in our hearts and in looking to the future – the glorious reappearing.

These are the important things.  The things I do not want to forget.

4 thoughts on “creating space

  1. Kathryn says:

    Yes, i understand. In fact, you have perfectly explained my frustrations with clutter. I sometimes have to accept it, but i am never happy about it, but for me at times it is accepting limitations.Good luck with that. I do similar things at times, but this next couple of weeks won't be part of that.


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