Phew. Have not been writing much, due to simple exhaustion I think! Sunday was a very busy day, we had the nativity in the morning service, then we were out for lunch (v nice) and then we had the carols by candlelight service in the evening.
The nativity went very well, with a couple of minor comedy moments (but no one got stepped on, thank goodness). In the last song the shepherds were meant to clap and dance around, but only one actually did so. He did it with gusto, bless him, and it was wonderful to watch. Then at the final chord, one of the others spontaneously threw his soft toy sheep into the air, which caused a great deal of mirth, not least from his mother, who was sitting next to me. (Thank goodness they didn’t throw baby Jesus.) Herod, by the way, did not look even slightly like Dracula – so that I’d completely forgotten it had even been mentioned!! He did sport a rather fetching black wool beard.
I read a poem at the Carols by Candlelight service, at the beginning – I could relax and enjoy the rest of the service. I was utterly drained by the end however, and was simply unable to go round chatting to visitors, which made me feel a little dejected, but still it was a long day for me – considering what I am used to. Had to try and reign in any frustration and sadness, knowing that the overwhelming tiredness itself would not help any rationalising that was needed.
Have just come back from having a blood test – what fun. Had to go to doctor’s last week in my usual ‘have you still got the headache?’ – ‘Yes’ scenario. Mentioned my rapid heart rate and she wants to check my thyroid although of course this has been checked before (is there anything they haven’t tested me for?!). I’ve actually twice been sent for an ECG but because of the procedure they don’t think a fast rate is notable – most people are nervous / embarrassed anyway. So all that has established is that I don’t have an irregular heartbeat. But still it thunders on. I’ve been pondering if it has anything to do with the levels of adrenalin and the body’s stress response, which I’ve been learning about as part of the programme (see here).
Meanwhile, Christmas is on the doorstep. If I don’t write anymore for a while, I’ll take the opportunity to wish you a very happy, blessed Christmas and a wonderful new year. May we all have the moments we need in order to truly appreciate the season…
Today, and most days: 3-4/10, medium -high